"We live in an age disturbed, confused, bewildered, afraid of its own forces, in search not merely of its road, but even of its direction." --Woodrow T. Wilson

Last night I had the most bizarre dream. It bewildered me, and made me a bit curious as to what it meant. I contacted someone I knew as an acquaintance and asked them to interpret it for me. She said she would be happy to do so. The results confused me greatly, even though the dream seems to be straightforward.

The dream:

My dream started out with me on an airplane. Then suddenly, it landed and I was standing on the bank of a lake next to a faceless man. Half of the lakes edge was engulfed in flames. I was looking onto a wall of fire across the water. The man turned in my direction and said "isn't it beautiful?". Then I woke up.

The interpretation of the dream was as follows:

Being that you start out your dream journey on a plane, you are eager for change, and have found a scary yet comfortable change that you want to happen quickly. When you land, and are standing by the lake with the strange man, your mind is telling you that you have found the change that is right for you. The faceless man in your dream resembles two things. He indicates that you are still searching for your own identity and finding out who you are and what you want. He also represents a person you are longing to know and understand on a deeper level. The lake in your dream resembles an emotional doubt towards a current relationship. Feeling a sense of warmth is telling you, you yearn for a sense of unconditional love that you are not currently receiving. You feel peace in your dream because, an end or a resolution to an emotional issue or inner conflict is on its way. It signals an end of an old cycle and the pause before the beginning of a new endeavor. The fire around the lake means that there is pain and fear regarding a relationship. The fire being, you not able to let it go. It resembles pent up emotion. The flames, being that they were a wall around half of the lake, resemble a barrier in your life. It is telling you that you need to burn the barrier. Presumably, to make change that needs to take course.

Now looking back on the dream and its supposed meaning, I am left baffled and confused. I'm not too sure of how I should take this dream, or of its true meaning. I think i've gone and lost my mind. Any thoughts?

HEART YOU ALL!

Romy

"Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and cannot remain silent." --Victor Hugo

Tonight, skunk showed me the final text version of my song. I'm so pleased with the results. Heres the final draft:

dreaming of you

on a warm summers eve

I was thinking of you

and the places we have been

I thought of how it'd be

if we chase our dreams

right across the moonbeams

into the dark night

CHORUS

there's so many things

(things to see)

and so many places

(left to go)

and a thousand dreams to follow

so we'll turn around

(turn around)

and chose another way

a new choice each day

and another thought upon us

we've drifted down

the lonely path of ours

just a stretch of empty road

but if you take my hand

and let me lead the way

somewhere into blue

skys above our heads

chasing our dreams

CHORUS

BRIDGE

drifting away as I

lay in the grass

dreaming of my

little dream

of runnig away and

Learning how to fly

CHORUS

there's so many thing

(things to see)

and so many places

left for us to go

and a thousand dreams to follow

follw me

Heart you all!

Romy

"A house is a place you grow up wanting to leave, but grow old wanting to get back to" John Ed Pearce

Never in my life have I been so happy to be home, as I was when we pulled into the parking lot early this morning. I absolutely loved my trip to Oregon, and wish it wouldn't have had to end, but all the same, I was very home sick, and wanted nothing more than to sleep in my own bed. I never thought i'd miss Greeley. But, I guess there always has to be an end to every amazing journey, and this marks the end of one of mine. Though, i'm sure there will be plenty more.

Love ya all,
Romy

"Desperate times call for desperate measures" -Ancient Proverb

It has now been over a weeks time, and I still cannot get home. I'm starting to feel trapped and scared. I've sold everything I have that I could possibly sell. I've run out of ideas. So now, I ask you, as a friend, to please help me out in this desperate time, and help get me home. Please give me any ideas you might have.

Heart You All,
Romy

“Words make you think a thought. Music makes you feel a feeling. A song makes you feel a thought.” -E. Y. Harburg

Tonight, Rosie, Skunk, and I were talking about music. After realizing that we were all musically inclined, each in a unique way, we decided to try and put together a band, using the internet as our meeting point. Its going to be an interesting experiment, and i'm very excited to see how it all pulls together.

I wrote a song tonight, and passed it along to skunk. He said it needs a bit of editing, but overall is good. I'm really proud of it, and can't wait to hear our finished product.

Heres the first draft of our song:

Dreaming of you
on a warm summers eve
i was thinking of you
and the places we have been
i was thinking how wonderful
it'd be to chase our dreams
float across the moonbeams
into the dark night

CHORUS:
Theres just so many things
we need to see
so many places
left to go
a ton of broken hearts to mend
and a thousand dreams to follow
[end chorus]

take my hand
let me lead you away
somewhere into the blue
sky above our weary heads
we've thought of so many
days in which we could be free
just a stretch of empty road
chasing our dreams

CHORUS

A lonely path weve drifted down
so we'll turn around
(turn around)
and choose another way
each day a choice
another thought upon us
drifting away as i lay
in the grass dreaming up a little dream
of running away and learning to fly

CHORUS

Heart,
Romy

“Anything worth learning cannot be learned in the classroom.” -Unknown


I've been in Ashland for exactly one week now. I've had the most amazing time ever. Never in my life have I felt so motivated to get up and go outside; been so eager as to want to take two to three hour walks; Never have I yearned to take to Quinn to the park so badly, as I have this week. Its amazing that a place 1500 miles away from my home could make me happy. I honestly am more than excited to move here. I absolutely can't wait.

As for this trip ending, We have completely run out of money. We've been doing everything we can to get enough money to get us home. The past three days, amidst our enchanting hour long walks, and exciting trips to the park, have been nothing but stress and worry. I've been thinking constantly about how we are getting home. But I know deep down in my heart that we will figure it out.

heart,
Romy

“Happiness is the time when you're chasing happiness.” -Kino Makoto

Chasing dreams seems so silly to some. But today, I learned that, no matter how crazy it seems, its the most amazing feeling in the world! I always knew that I disliked Greeley, and I dreamed of leaving for so long, but I had no idea how happy it would make me to actually leave. I know I haven't moved, but just being gone temporarily and not knowing what lies ahead, but knowing its a future other than the one I was headed towards, makes me feel amazing. I sat in the car all day today, chasing dreams. I don't think the smile left my face. Not once. And with this, I give you all a wonderful night.

Live. Laugh. Love.

<33 Romy

“It's fear of the unknown. The unknown is what it is. And to be frightened of it is what sends everybody scurrying around chasing dreams, illusions, wars, peace, love, hate, all that--it's all illusion. Unknown is what it is. Accept that it's unknown and it's plain sailing. Everything is unknown--then you're ahead of the game. That's what it is. Right?” -John Lennon

Some would say i'm crazy. Maybe even insane, and maybe its true. In fact, i'm starting to believe i may have lost my marbles. Today I did the unthinkable. I jumped in my car (Ked and Quinn along, of course) and started driving into the western horizon. I passed through the emptiness that is Wyoming, Around the boggling Salt Lake, over the salt flats, and into the heart of Nevada. With only a bit of money in my pocket, and a few grocery bags of food, I am determined to make it to the west coast. I'm running out of money, and fast, and i've pawned literally every electronic item I own, but, for once in my life, i've taken control of things and done what I want.
Finally i've come to realize that I have no idea what the future holds for me. But at the rate things were going, It wasn't looking so good. Something drastic needed to be done. Honestly, I'm scared. But if I don't start taking risks, and learning, i'll never end up where I want to be.

<33 Romy