"When mistrust comes in, love goes out." -Irish Proverbb

Straight answers seem to be something that I haven't been able to find, recently. It was getting to the point where I was losing the little bit of patience I had left; the small thread that was binding me to thoughts of a better future, was the same thread that was pulling me into an abyss of loneliness and driving me to a point of insanity. Tonight, however, I was drawn to my senses, and inclined to finally give my mind a rest, no matter how short that rest may be. The outcome of my choice tonight, filled me with nothing but appreciation for a close friend and the ability to finally say what I have been holding back for so long. I was given the confirmation of my worst fears and my suspicions were laid to rest. The things a person can learn from simply asking is astounding.

Though my answers were found, I'm still stuck in a state of limbo. The lies that I've been handed within the past few months, are almost unbearable. It's one thing to do wrong, but to lie about the wrong doing, is far worse. I'm not perfect, nor have I always made the right choices, but when asked about them, I at least have had the decency to tell the truth. I'm smarter than I was given credit for. I've felt like I've read the plot summary to a play I'm not fond of, and now, I'm being forced to sit through the entire show. I already know what's going on, there's no point in staying for the second act.

On a final note, I've come to realize who my true friends are, these past few months; And, consequently, I'm left feeling more alone than ever. But rest assured, those that are left standing by my side, are more than appreciated, and will forever have me here, no matter the reason I am needed.