Friday, May 30, 2008

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” - Buddha

I was walking around a mall with 2 friends, and I lost a shopping bag of items. While hunting for the shopping bag, the mall closed, and we were left standing, alone, in the dark. We started contemplating what to do, and decided to fly to Europe for a backpacking adventure. We hopped on the plane, but ended up in Singapore instead. Not the bustling metropolis of Singapore, but a very poor, desolate part. [Not sure if that even really exists.] Turns out, we hopped a missionary plane on accident, and had no money to get back. Then, I woke up.


After roughly translating my dream, I've come to realize what my dream was telling me. Subconsciously, I'm trying to make a favorable impression on a certain individual. While raising my awareness to this, my dream was also trying to tell me that my needs and desires are starting to be fulfilled, and a new sense of freedom, where I have previously felt limited and restricted, is coming into play. Responsibilities that I've felt have been burdening me, are being thrown to the wind, which in turn, is allowing me to see what develops of a current situation. Also, aspects of my personality which I've rejected, are ready to be integrated into my life, so I can rid myself of a strong emotional and physical burden. I'm on a life journey, in which my mind feels, will help me to gain financially and reinforce old ways of thinking, with a new take on matters.

I'm quite convinced now, that moving to Grand Junction was the first step to a new, happier, life. I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and gain confidence in my life, and the choices I make. I see opportunity where I once only saw a dead end, and it's a comforting thought. I see now, after only a week and a half, that I am going to be able to start saving money, and paying off my debt. The burdens of money and responsibility are starting to lift off my shoulders, as I can see a way, now, to get everything paid off. As a person, I have not changed, but for the better. I'm starting to realize that I'm worth so much more than I've previously given myself credit for. I'm stronger than I've always believed, and most of all, I have no reason to lack confidence. All in all, I've only come to find that I have a drive I didn't know existed, and I truly hope that I continue on this path of what seems to be, success.